He Didn’t Shiver In Doubt But Stood in Faith
Abraham’s story has never been one that I have gone back to over and over, rereading the details, wondering what it was really like to live his life. I’ve never read a novel based on his life like I have with some of my favorite Bible characters. His story somehow, for me, was just there. I knew about it and could tell it to other people, but it never was THE story I thought about a lot.
Until the last few years.
Enter some big life changes.
Enter the potential that life could possibly look much different than I had ever thought before that it could be.
And suddenly Romans 4 was a chapter that I hung out in. I perused it, dug into it, asked questions about it.
Abraham took off for a new land, away from what was familiar, away from his extended family, and followed the call and the promise of God. He took his wife, nephew, and possessions with him. He didn’t first go by himself and trouble-shoot the plan or double-check that the call was a workable call. He just went.
He had a call.
He believed that the One who called was faithful and wouldn’t let him fall through the cracks on his way to Canaan.
Believing that God could bring him to a new home in Canaan was probably the easy part of Abraham’s faith journey. He had also been promised that he was “the father of many nations.”
Abraham became old; Sarah, his wife, went through menopause. Yet God didn’t back off of His promise. He still called Abraham the “father of many nations.”
“Against all hope” (vs. 18) and “without weakening in his faith” (vs. 19), Abraham “did not waver (or in my translation, shiver) through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and GAVE GLORY TO GOD, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.” (vs. 20, 21)
This backdrop to come to this point-the song “Oceans” by Hillsong. I love it. But it makes me shiver.
“Lead me where my trust is without borders.”
“Take me deeper than my feet would ever wander.”
This past weekend I was at a conference where the worship leader led this song. I cried. And shivered. I shivered because I know what God is asking of me, where He’s taking me that is way outside of my trust borders, a place that my feet wouldn’t wander on their own. Sitting here writing this post, I’m shivering. It’s not comfortable. It’s scary!
But I’m with Abraham. I believe that the risk trumps the idea of settling for less than God’s best for me.
This morning I read a blog post by Annie F. Downs. It is so spot-on it hurts to read it. It’s gut-level real.
The bottom line is that if I’m really serious about shifting the normal of my life, I’ve got to move past the trust borders I’m comfortable with.
Here’s the link to Annie’s post, Stop Singing Oceans. If you are serious about shifting YOUR normal, I dare you to read it!